How do you live a life in constant storms if there is nowhere a safe harbor? The metaphor not only symbolizes Fabien, who, with its pronounced ADHD, did not have a healthy home with the addictive father or the emotionally negligent mother. He actually spent two years on the high seas - in the youth ship, a controversial and now closed institution for young people who are difficult to educate.
"I built a lot of crap, stole bicycles and mopeds, for example," explains the 38-year-old today. His mother therefore chose this measure together with the youth welfare office. The idea: young people should learn from their surroundings from drilling to insert themselves and contribute their part to the community. It only comes away from the ship who has met expectations for 40 weeks. It took two years at Fabien When he had solid ground under his feet again, he was 16 years old.
Diagnosis ADHD
As a therapeutic measure, the intervention had no persistent effect - rather it was a confirmation of what Fabien had experienced all his life: that it does not fit in anywhere and cannot handle structures and rules. Already in primary school he was divided into the small class because of his conspicuous behavior, where he could not stay due to underwhile. Back in the regular class, it was not sustainable.
At the age of nine, the diagnosis of ADHD brought an explanation for his behavior and Ritalin a temporary solution. A year later he read in his father's hemp magazine that ADHD medication in the brain looks similar to cocaine. Characterized by his father's drug addiction, he wanted nothing to do with such substances and dismissed the medication independently.
Fabien only partially attributes his conspicuous behavior to ADHD. "With my mother I was able to do what I wanted, she wasn't interested," he says. He also largely had been denied together, reading, cuddling, speeches. Accordingly, he had not learned to deal with rules and structures.
Work and shelter lost
He also attributes these circumstances that he could not hold his apprenticeship as a baker/confectioner he started after the youth ship. Shortly after the demolition, his mother's partner at the time threw him out of his apartment - Fabien had forgotten a candle, causing his mattress to caught fire. Although he had a warm relationship with his biological father, he could not stay with him and his mother either.
Initially, he soon found access to the left -wing autonomous occupation scene. He was satisfied for a while. "I had my calm. Every now and then I had to serve a bus, but that didn't stress myself," he says. However, he only found his luck when he found a school friend on Facebook at the age of 25 and the two fell in love.
Fabien still lived without ADHD medication-not only because of his addiction to addiction, but also because it has green stars, which represents a contraindication for all ADHD medication. "My ADHD is so pronounced that I am hardly able to do with relationships without therapy," explains Fabien . "My fellow human beings find me annoying because I am restless and I quickly get hurtful in my impulsiveness."
Joy of life thanks to cannabis
Four years ago, he and his family doctor talked about the possibilities of cannabis therapy. Since then he has been taking Dronabinol, a liquid synthetic THC preparation. His symptoms are greatly alleviated, but his stomach did not play. That is why a specialized pharmacy now produces Dronabinol capsules with coconut oil as a carrier: 60 capsules cost almost 2000 francs. The health insurance pays the costs.
However, since flowers would be much cheaper and have a good effect on it, he tries to obtain a cost of costs, but is granite. With the help of a doctor that the Association Medcan gave him, he now represents the fifth application for reservation. "The next step is the insurance combination site," he says resolutely.
Why he is ready to fight a long-term financially portable and economically sensible solution becomes all the more understandable if, in addition to your ADHD history, you also know your physical complaints: Due to a herniated disc, he took the approved maximum dose of Novalgin over four years, but this should only be used for a short time due to possible side effects. He only got away with the dronabinol drops.
After a long odyssey, Fabien found his home port. He lives with his girlfriend, moves to 100 percent IV pension and, thanks to the cannabis preparations, is capable of getting the household, taking care of the dog and keeping a stable circle of friends.
